Saturday, September 29, 2007

My Status Messages

The ones I remember putting up, anyway. The rest have disappeared since into cyberspace.

  • I guess it takes a loss of weight in certain areas to help you climb the corporate ladder. Feeling lightheaded today?

  • Being big helps. You attract more suckers that way.

  • If He's in my heart... don't the cholesterol-clogged arteries bother Him?

  • If the criminally insane are characterised by huge IQ levels.. what went wrong with me?!

  • Stand back! I have a brain and I'm not afraid to use it!!

  • Free Willy probably had a lot of fun...

  • Interruptions NOT invited. Unless they're clad in tight skimpy jockeys.

  • I'm wishing all men weren't assholes who'd mate with almost anything.

  • Work is worship. And we all look forward to the Sabbath day.

  • Come to me all you who suffer.. and I will make you appreciate it better.

  • My mind's blank but the rounds in my gun aren't.

  • Life isn't fair.. and so isn't a loaded gun in my hand.

  • It isn't you: it's my solipsism.
That's all I can remember. If you're still awake after reading all this... you can buzz off now.

Friday, September 28, 2007

Weird Signs Part-10017


Oh Brother?

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Stop This Shit

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I’m feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I’m pissed cause you came around
Why don’t you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can’t help you fix yourself
You’re making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you’re drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion is in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I’m drunk and I’m feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn’t ever come around
Why don’t you just go home?
Cause you’re drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn’t understand
(But you didn’t understand)
Go fix yourself

I can’t help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I’m sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can’t help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I’m sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

- Scars, Papa Roach

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Moo

Hold the head steady, I'm gonna milk the cow


I object to being milked. Everywhere I go, people take a look at my fancy phone (which my parents got me), my clothes (borrowed permanently off my sister) and my bag (um, yeah I bought that myself - with dad's money) and seem to think they can fleece me for all my worth. Which is usually a sum at least a hundred times more than I can afford.

Just sitting here in Webworld, the lady's gone and asked me twice now if I'd like to avail their 'new recharge offer' which would help me part with 1000 rupees that I do not possess. Shopkeepers are often proven wrong when I step in and step out with just one thing - the one I need and the one I budgeted for.

You have to pity the IT generation. They are people who are being ripped off by the government through techpark-high income tax rates and by house-owners with their ten month advances (one lakh only sir). And all of this leaves them with enough money to.. live the first fifteen days of every month with glee. Of course I'm not talking about Balamurugesan who probably spends a thousand rupees on rent every month, eats curd rice for the better part of the week and, generally, makes a killing by engaging in little or no social activity.

I guess this is why communism would never have worked.



Monday, September 24, 2007

Snap Attack

Alarming thought: do people take pictures only to persuade other people that they have a life?

There we were, on a roadtrip towards Mahabalipuram, just enjoying the ride. When everyone else kept going on about how 'we ought to take a picture' and 'i'm going to upload this video onto youtube first thing.' Sigh.

Our lives are centric on other peoples' opinions more than we'd like to admit, are they not?

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

A Dedication

I'm going to expose myself to you
The vilest, wickedest I can be
You might be sorry, you might rue
To see the darker side of me

But you're just getting what you deserve
Just punishment for the torments you inflict
All this time it was you I would serve
From today, it'll be my feet you lick

Die, bugbreath....

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Lost All Hope? Hang In There...

Check this song out. Not that it totally voices the way I feel at this point of time, but it goes far to cheer you up if you need it:

I'd like to close my eyes and go numb
but there's a cold wind coming from
the top of the highest high-rise today.
It's not a breeze cause' it blows hard.
Yes and it wants me to discard the humanity I know,
watch the warmth blow away.
So don't let the world bring you down.
Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold.
Remember why you came and while you're alive
experience the warmth before you go old
Do you think I should adhere to that pressing new frontier?
And leave in my wake a trail of fear
Or should I hold my head up high
and throw a wrench in spokes by
leaving the air behind me clear?
Don't let the world bring you down.
Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold.
Remember why you came and while you're alive
experience the warmth before you go old.

- Incubus, The Warmth

Feed on This

Ok, I'm sorry to have to do this to you. Having been asked to write two essays on furnished topics, I came up with the following. And since this blog acts as a repository for most of my writings, here goes:

Live life for today

The theists may have a lot to say against this notion. After all, living life for some obscure promise in the afterlife, is what they claim we were born to do. Well, while they continue to live in the hope of someday reaching Paradise, I advocate living for the here and the now. What do you have to lose, except yourself?

While you’re young, there’s plenty of amusement to be derived from the world. Having been influenced by random rock stars who had also taken to following this style of thinking, several of the youth of today like to live ‘like there’s no tomorrow’. I suppose this is the most comfortable way to think because it keeps all sorts of worries, that you might otherwise have, at bay. If you live life only for the present, you don’t have to worry about how you’re going to ever pay off that car loan, you don’t have to think about who’s going to look after you when you’re old and dying and you most certainly don’t have to worry about whether all those cigarettes you’re smoking are going to give you lung cancer or not. No, living for today is so much easier.

What I just said may have sounded very pessimistic, albeit realistic. It’s just that I like to live for the present, as well, perhaps because of the way I’ve seen my father lead his life. Although he’d wanted to buy a Suzuki Grand Vitara all his life, he never did so because he was too busy saving money for the future. Now, while he has several savings at various locations and banks, he has aged – gone are the joys and passions of youth. At this point of time, there aren’t even any ‘chicks’ he could impress even if he went ahead a bought the jeep. None that my mother would approve of, anyway.

Sometimes it’s important to just let go, or there’s so much of good honest fun you could miss out on. I suppose that’s why it’s better to let tomorrow take care of itself. There’s a lot of life in the day that is; stop worrying about tomorrow, and just let go.


Influence of advertising on our lives

Six months ago I was quite satisfied with picking up a pack of Lays or Kurkure when the odd craving for unhealthy snacks arose. Now, thanks to ITC’s latest onslaught on modern India, we have Bingo as an alternative.

Now, I do not watch a lot of TV, mainly because of the lack of a television set at where I currently reside. The Bingo chips ads were, however, so widespread and popular that I had friends coming up to me describing these ‘amusing’ commercials that even had me going ‘what’s Bingo then?’ And that’s exactly how advertising through mass media works – it makes a product so familiar or tantalising to you, that soon you end up wanting some of it for yourself.

Until a year ago in Chennai, several residents had no idea what Barclays was. While you can blame that on the general ignorance of Chennai dwellers, the fact remains. A year ago, blue billboards starting popping up all over the place with a single word on it: “Barclays”. Six months later, a short line would appear below the word, describing things like how old the bank was, or how it was the first to revolutinise banking and other such statements. Ask anyone in Chennai today about Barclays and they’d give it to you like a walking encyclopaedia.

While I don’t object to advertising as such – after all, some ads are so creative that all you want to do is focus on them rather than the mind-numbing serials shown in-between them – what I do object to is the alarming impact it has on us. For instance, I have a friend who chimes in an ad jingle any time some word associated with it is spoken. While she may think it is ‘cute’, I find it just plain scary. It brings to mind George Orwell’s 1984. After all, mass media is a most effective way to brainwash the public into believing what you want them to believe.

It’s tough to ignore the words and images that are thrust out at you along the roads, at shopping malls, as you move through the city you live in. That’s probably the most frightening part about the advertising industry. It can plant a seed of thought in your mind that you may never have wanted there in the first place...

The Window

Somewhere between the seventh floor and ninth floor of my office building is a Window. It makes for a decentish quiet spot from which to view the traffic of Chennai (hahaha.. look at those buggers driving around in the blistering heat) and from which i can spy on the office building directly opposite. I while away time as I take a drag, pondering the many worries I am constantly plagued with, or what the person in the opposite building could be saying on his mobile phone. Or most probably I'd be dodging labourers passing by who'd like to take a gander at the female smoker. Whatever. It's my private little getaway, passed on to me by a coworker. And now you know.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

And You Thought (Divine) Retribution was a Myth

The story: A guy who was obsessed with a very good friend of mine. This guy would call her up every day and intimidate her into marrying him, threatening to unleash certain political people against her and her family if she didn't. This guy would stalk her and go over to her house every night, stand outside her window and cut himself repeatedly with a blade to show her how much he 'loved' her. It was only when a male friend took him to task by threatening police action, and bringing his actions to the attention of his family, that he ceased to trouble her any more.

Now, read following article. Smile.

http://www.gulf-daily-news.com/Story.asp?Article=193606&Sn=BNEW&IssueID=30176

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Loneliness Looms Large

The worst part's the nights. I can't stand the nights. The tossing and turning and wondering if this life's worth anything. The thought that at the end of the day (Stephan Pastis hates that term) there isn't anyone for you. Then why go on? What meaning does your life have? What's the point?

I somewhat envy the classmates who gave in to forced marriages. At least they have someone to go home to. A reason to live, as it were. Sure, there'll be sadness and all sorts of trouble. But at least that'll give you something to occupy yourself with. A life alone is a life that isn't worth living. Who said that before? Me or someone else? Doesn't matter.

When you're a child it's so simple. Mum and Dad are always around. To ensure that you realise that the sole purpose of your life is to continue going to school and eating and sleeping. And going to church. When you grow up you realise you needed more than just that to give your life any true meaning. What do you get when you've pushed everyone away and all you have is the cold dark night?

As usual, I'll put off the thought with a 'let's see what happens' and take a book to busy myself with. But for how long? For how long will I keep fooling myself into believing that this is how I want my life to be?

Ah, the world's getting to me. Time to pull my socks up and realise that this isn't it. There's plenty more for me to do yet. Plenty to prove to myself and others yet. And of course... the fact that there is one person who needs me to be alive at least for some time longer... Yeah, that'll keep me going for now.

Sunday, September 02, 2007

Beer!

Being high at a Mangalorean Catholic wedding is FUN!!!